OK...no need to go on and on about this...I just need to get this out... I just attempted again... Wonder of wonders... I totally missed my vein... Yes, I tried cutting in hopes I would bleed to death. Ha! I'm an idiot... Had it not been dark I might be gone by now... But I totally missed it... And I'm not going to bother trying again... Done venting... PS: Please do not lecture me on how this is horrible...I know it is and I feel guilty enough already. I broke so many promises by doing this tonight...I don't need to be reminded of them either. I hope you guys understand.