Why? I don't want to be here and yet people who do die...Is this some fucked up punishment to people I care for...my neice whose 9years old lost her nanna today at midday (she was extremely close, as my neice was her first grandaughter and she had no daughters just one son)....
GOD IS SICK...Everytime I want to die, someone else dies....where the is the sense is that...kill me, give me cancer, stop killing people who have reasons to live, who want to live...who will do what they can to fight for they lifes...let the people who want to die, die...let the people who want to live, live...simple as that..nothing in between, nothing hidden...
So now what am I meant to "postpone" my plans because of my neice, is that what this sick man god was thinking, that I because he took Jackie, that I should fight to live..NO...I've had enough of this double punishment shit...its crap
Its only been 6 weeks since you took a friend, and now this..death surrounds me, and yet i'm expected to live this life, a life I don't want....give me the death card...just stop punishing those close to me because I want to die.
Stop taking people who want to live...and take me instead.
GOD IS SICK...Everytime I want to die, someone else dies....where the is the sense is that...kill me, give me cancer, stop killing people who have reasons to live, who want to live...who will do what they can to fight for they lifes...let the people who want to die, die...let the people who want to live, live...simple as that..nothing in between, nothing hidden...
So now what am I meant to "postpone" my plans because of my neice, is that what this sick man god was thinking, that I because he took Jackie, that I should fight to live..NO...I've had enough of this double punishment shit...its crap
Its only been 6 weeks since you took a friend, and now this..death surrounds me, and yet i'm expected to live this life, a life I don't want....give me the death card...just stop punishing those close to me because I want to die.
Stop taking people who want to live...and take me instead.