im fuckin done with it. fuckin' sick of it all. how loud do i need to fuckin' scream to be heard? how fuckin much do i need to beg to actually be seen? Do I need to cut a little more? cry a little more? scream a little more? drink a little more? WHAT!!!!!!! Tell me what the fuck do i need to do to make you realize I'm NOT OKAY. I haven't been for weeks now. Downward fuckin' spiral right!!! Well close your fuckin' eyes to it, turn your head, ignore it, walk on by, and just keep going. I don't fuckin' care anymore. I am tired of pretending what I say and when I say it actually matters. Truthfully I know it doesn't. I know nothing I say to you or you matters. Do this? Help me! Do that?! Help me?! TAKE TAKE TAKE TAKE. Fuckin' greedy fuckers. JUST FUCKIN' TAKE IT. You think I'm a little upset..nah just turn your head to it you won't fuckin notice. If I cut a little too deep would you even see the scars!! I hide them oh so well. In places you'd never see, places you'd never know. So keep on looking at me, ill paste the smile on..keep on fuckin' looking and one day maybe just maybe you'll see the cracked and bruised soul I have. And then...that's the day I will turn around and slit my wrists for you...so that way you can watch me bleed the hurt out. Do not give me hugs..they will not solve it...give me words...give me something other than the awws :hug: I'm sorry...something to grasp onto.