Taking 1st step

[tired82]

There's not much left for me in this world. The things that get me through the day seem pointless and I can't find good reasons to hang on because of them. Hope's best intentions can only bring the slightest relief.

So tomorrow will be the first step in a long preparation. I don't want to screw it up like so many other things in my life. Going to take a long trip to see my brother, perhaps for the last time. Ironically, I'm concerned that the bad weather might make the trip hazardous. After the trip, I'll start getting all my affairs in order.

 

[lifeisashedog]

Enjoy the trip, Tired :smile:

 

[touglytobeloved]

Dont let the weather spoil your trip. But why to see your brother for the last time? I suspect...

 

[almosteasy]

sorry to hear you feel this way. If you want to talk, you can PM me. Hopefully you change your mind.

 

[Dave_N]

Maybe seeing your brother will help you to rediscover the value of life? :hug:

 

[silent_enigma]

Have a nice trip.

 

[middleofnowhere]

While you're going to see your brother, let your mind rediscover the small joys you've had. If you're going to leave us, you might as well find a place of peace. If you never have, you might talk to God about your life and your future. Sounds as though you'll have some good down time.

Jim

 

[tired82]

Well, after seeing my brother & his family, I am back on the fence on whether I should end my life.

Over the years I've been good at hiding & avoiding talking about my problems. I realize that my family does care about me, but there's a lot of detachment on my part. Seeing my brother reaffirmed that thinking. I should be closer to him, but there was something that kept me from even talking to him about things going on with me.

Isn't it true that people usually can't wrap their heads around why some people choose to take their own life? I guess I'm putting a lot of distance between people to avoid that. There's still a lot of pressure in my life, and I'm too numb to do anything about it. It just seems that even if I find my way out of the bad times I'm having, there's not much to look forward to....

 

[Ugly]

Don't kill yourselves, just be glad u ain't ugly