Taking 1st step

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by tired82, Apr 4, 2008.

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  1. tired82

    tired82 Well-Known Member

    There's not much left for me in this world. The things that get me through the day seem pointless and I can't find good reasons to hang on because of them. Hope's best intentions can only bring the slightest relief.

    So tomorrow will be the first step in a long preparation. I don't want to screw it up like so many other things in my life. Going to take a long trip to see my brother, perhaps for the last time. Ironically, I'm concerned that the bad weather might make the trip hazardous. After the trip, I'll start getting all my affairs in order.
  2. lifeisashedog

    lifeisashedog Well-Known Member

    Enjoy the trip, Tired :smile:
  3. touglytobeloved

    touglytobeloved Well-Known Member

    Dont let the weather spoil your trip. But why to see your brother for the last time? I suspect...:(
  4. almosteasy

    almosteasy Well-Known Member

    sorry to hear you feel this way. If you want to talk, you can PM me. Hopefully you change your mind.
  5. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Maybe seeing your brother will help you to rediscover the value of life? :hug:
  6. silent_enigma

    silent_enigma Well-Known Member

    Have a nice trip.
  7. middleofnowhere

    middleofnowhere Well-Known Member

    While you're going to see your brother, let your mind rediscover the small joys you've had. If you're going to leave us, you might as well find a place of peace. If you never have, you might talk to God about your life and your future. Sounds as though you'll have some good down time.

  8. tired82

    tired82 Well-Known Member

    Well, after seeing my brother & his family, I am back on the fence on whether I should end my life.

    Over the years I've been good at hiding & avoiding talking about my problems. I realize that my family does care about me, but there's a lot of detachment on my part. Seeing my brother reaffirmed that thinking. I should be closer to him, but there was something that kept me from even talking to him about things going on with me.

    Isn't it true that people usually can't wrap their heads around why some people choose to take their own life? I guess I'm putting a lot of distance between people to avoid that. There's still a lot of pressure in my life, and I'm too numb to do anything about it. It just seems that even if I find my way out of the bad times I'm having, there's not much to look forward to....
  9. Ugly

    Ugly Active Member

    Don't kill yourselves, just be glad u ain't ugly
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