I don't want to go to therapy any more. We're going to take a break. I feel more suicidal after leaving a session because I'm so frustrated. Going works up my suicidal impulses. I know if I stop going nothing will ever change but going isn't changing anything either. If I stop, I might as well sign my death certificate. I won't change therapists. She says I have to find the answers inside me. If I knew how, I wouldn't need therapy. I just want to scream. I hate my life.