Therapist says to me yesterday " I don't think I'm helping you." She wants to. I like her. I've read the book's she suggests. There is nothing new. She says something has to change but she doesn't know how. In the meantime, I've already been in the ER this year ( physical sick, not memtal), that is $1,000. I need $3500 in dental work and my car just cost $800 in repairs. I'm still paying a loan from getting my car fixed last spring. I had to borrow money from my mom who is on social security to pay for the car. I'm barely hanging on. I have no time nor energy to even participate in life. I continue to watch peoples` lives grow an move forward. I get road block after road block. There is no joy, there is no inclusion, there's no love. There's nothing.