Hello, I'm kinda scared talking to you guys about this depression I'm dealing with, but I've been dealing with it so long, it has gotten bad. To the point where little things have me reaching for a gun. I am a former victim of child abuse, and I feel as if I'm a waste of space, and i'll never be able to lead a normal life. I also don't feel human anymore. My life has boiled down to me going to school, coming home, and going to sleep and i have constant anxiety attacks so I hide in the bathroom a lot. I also have a big problem with skin picking, and I have ugly scars all over my face and body, and it makes me feel worse. I also have a bad habit of locking myself in the bathroom with no lights on, I'm not sure why I do this, but it stops my panic attacks. I cry easily but my mother tells me I cry all the time, and I'm annoying and I'm ruining her life by making her unhappy, she also says she sees kids everyday worse off than me, and im a horrible person for being so sad. I have no friends to talk to, and I never have. I really need people to talk to.