I am SO pissed and hateful and angry and i cant let it out
my husband and i are split but living together still and he's angry because i want to leave
he's on my ass all the time and i want to hate him but i hate me
i had a good day today, the best in a month, this depression SUCKS but i felt comfortable in it
now, today, the best day, was cut short and i was feeling ok because nothing squashed my day
but now he has because he's starting in on me again
and now i am taking a huge nosedive back to how i was feeling and dipping lower
Im a cutter and i hate it and i want to tell him
i almost told him last night when i felt i could then changed my mind
i thought i might today, on a good day, but changed my mind
now i feel like i should but im am so mad and i read its not good to blurt it out so bluntly in a moment of outrage
i dont know why bother i ruined everything and its getting worse and I WANT OUT OF MY LIFE and i want this crap to stop so bad but i cant do anything about it right now
i dont even feel like screaming i am just filled with anger

my husband and i are split but living together still and he's angry because i want to leave
he's on my ass all the time and i want to hate him but i hate me
i had a good day today, the best in a month, this depression SUCKS but i felt comfortable in it
now, today, the best day, was cut short and i was feeling ok because nothing squashed my day
but now he has because he's starting in on me again
and now i am taking a huge nosedive back to how i was feeling and dipping lower
Im a cutter and i hate it and i want to tell him
i almost told him last night when i felt i could then changed my mind
i thought i might today, on a good day, but changed my mind
now i feel like i should but im am so mad and i read its not good to blurt it out so bluntly in a moment of outrage
i dont know why bother i ruined everything and its getting worse and I WANT OUT OF MY LIFE and i want this crap to stop so bad but i cant do anything about it right now
i dont even feel like screaming i am just filled with anger


