I have noticed this is the third least populated section on the forum in terms of threads. I find that unsurprising, it tells us something about ourselves I think. That we use this forum to dwell on problems rather than come up with solutions. Maybe with this post I can work to change that. I have fallen off the wagon once again. I had earlier in the year quit smoking, took to the gym and learned the guitar. I lost 40 pounds then gained it all back, and even started smoking again so I quit again though I'm still gaining weight. What drove me before, more than anything, was the feeling of love. I have a number of issues that I care to address. I wish to eliminate paranoia and stop fixating on thoughts of what others are thinking about me. I know I'm a good person. I wish to stop fantasizing and reminiscing about things and live more in this world. I wish to help others and notice qualities about them that I admire. I wish to learn to commit to something - I have a number of projects, books I wish to write, machines I wish to invent. And will, I wish to have the will to start my projects and I wish to enjoy doing them. I wish to enjoy the process. I'm going to start by going on a walk.