So the other day I was running around another forum I frequent. On this forum I found I had a buddy list. Some of the names are familiar others are not. So what does someone who is As weak and desperate as me do? I try to tame my old online life off hold. Yup I have spent the past two or so months reconnecting with old online friends. I then think to myself what the fuck happened? I did nothing to maintain these relationships for 3 years. Now all of the sudden I want back in? God I am pathetic these people should not give two shits about me. I ignored them for almost 3 years. Now I suddenly walk back into their lives because I am not getting laid anymore? What the fuck is wrong with me. I do kit deserve their time of day. I am such a fucking hypocrite. I get mad at Z for not maintaining our friendship, I am her best friend or so she says, get here I am trying to make up for lost time with all of these online friends. God I am pathetic I need to just give up on her and everyone start over fresh. Then again I am too fucking pathetic to do Even that.