I'm a 23 year old guy soon to be 24. I have been planning to commit suicide for a while now and have a date and plan in mind. On September 14th I plan on taking my motorcycle out on a near by 4 lane highway and get going fairly fast on the inside lane and go until I meet up with a semi truck coming in the other direction when I will vear over into it's lane at the last minute. The date is just a random date I chose just to get thing in order before I do it. The method I hope will come off as an accident. As for my reasons why I don't have any that are overly dramatic. I did reciently get denied acceptance into my program of choice at university. There is a girl who I like and asked out a few times only to be turned down although we are good friends. I don't make a lot of money but I manage. I do not want to end up getting a job I do not want and hate and stay in a town I can't stand. I do not feel like living to an old age when it is just in a life I can't stand and find boring. I feel my life has no direction. I have in the past been a heavy drinker but I have since quit and have not drank in over 2 years. But I do miss my drunken states when I just was so drunk I didn't care about stuff. There is also cases of depression in my family and I have had friends tell me I sometime appear to have a bi-polar personality. I reciently hear of someone I knew and thought highly of dying in a car crash. I thought this seemed like a nice way to die with a nice bang. I also thought that even though this person will be missed he would also not have to worry about much, and by dying at the early age that he did (32) he will more likely be remembered by his friends more that if he lived to an old age. I have started to slowly give away my possessions and even distancing myself from people who I know it will affect the most. I decided to rarly talk to my family members and see my friends, the ones that insiste on seeing me I intentionly cause arguments with and tell them to leave me alone to they will distance themselves from me. I have not and will not tell them what I am planning. I also refuse to get help elsewhere. This is maybe just a chance for maybe someone to help me. I feel like I for some reason at least owe myself some sort of a chance of help even if it is as minimal as this. I also feel I like this could be a way of letting people about my death not being an accident but actually a suicide if they are just willing to look. Also don't go on about god, I'm in no way regelious and even if I was I'm just going to go to hell by your standards anyways.