I thought talking to someone, telling a friend how i feel would help that they would make me see things clearer. Its all bullshit, now i just feel like a fuckin victim telling someone i want to kill myself. Fuckin bollocks. Listening to fuckin stupid arse people saying talk to people tell a friend it will help. It doesnt fuckin help it makes me feel like a fuckin failure for admitting to another person that my life is shit and i want to blow my fuckin brains. Why cant this bullshit end? I need help and there is no one out there to give it to me. I dont want to be a fuckin victim so i wont ask for fuckin help. Its all so fucked up. When will it all fuckin end. Fuck it all.