I have to meet with one on the 11th... I'm honestly scared to go. What will they do?
Initial consultation? Probably he or she will go over your current situation and past history, ask how you're feeling, possibly specifically ask you if you're feeling suicidal, and review whatever medications you're on and maybe modify your prescriptions/put you on something. By which point the fifty minutes will be up and you'll be out the door. Maybe with another appointment down the road set up, maybe not. I don't think things will get all that personal in this meeting, if that's what you're worried about. Maybe down the road they might.
I was in the hospital for being suicidal and now they are making me go see this psychiatrist.
Depending on how you feel now, I'd personally be careful about what I say and do not say. If you're not feeling actively suicidal at present I don't see any reason you can't be honest. But if you are you should be aware that if you communicate this it is quite possible, I'd say likely, you'll wind up back in the hospital...whatever you personally do or do not want. A psychiatrist who doesn't take something like that seriously is potentially opening him/herself up to a huge malpractice suit, so they very well may move for an
involuntary admission just to cover their asses.
They may or may not be interested in helping you, depending upon the psychiatrist, has been my experience. But I also see no way they're not going to look out for #1 (themselves) first. Which means you start talking suicide, you'd better have your toothbrush and a change of clothes with you.
I don't want to talk to them,
Who exactly is
making you? A court? The police? I'd say if you don't want to talk to them you shouldn't have to, personally. Especially since you're no longer in a hospital situation. Downright silly, in fact, since you're out and about in society.
but somehow I know it must have a benefit.
It may, but it very well may not. I don't think I personally ever benefitted, but some people do. In any event, I don't think one meeting is going hurt, but I doubt it would help either.