If anyone on here volunteers for a crisis hotline- whether it be text or phone calls- do not use it as a means to find a date. Last night, thoughts of death filled my head more and more every second I was awake. I have to use the text line because I can't speak out what I want to say or what I need to say. She wasn't listening to anything I told her and her fucking advice was to play Pokémon Go or walk or exercise. That would be great advice... IF ONE MESSAGE BEFORE THAT I TOLD HER THAT NORMALLY TO GET OUT OF THESE THOUGHTS I WALK, I PLAY GAMES OR DRAW, BUT I CAN'T WHEN I GET LIKE THIS. NOTHING WORKS AND I JUST WANT MY MIND TO CALM DOWN. That's not fucking listening, man. That's like telling me I'm not trying hard enough. I told her I needed to just talk to someone. To get things off my chest. All she did was ask me for my fucking name and assume I was a guy. Which is no big deal, so I corrected her about my sex and gender and she ended the fucking line. Let's get it clear, if someone comes to you for help, if someone's telling you the things they normally do to calm down isn't working, you fucking listen to them or at least be honest and say you can't help them and direct them to someone else who can. I just needed to talk. I just needed to know I am not a worthless piece of crap and she did just the opposite of that. I told her specifically I just needed someone to talk to... and she left me there, guys. She just left me there. It's not the first time I used the text line, but it's the first time someone ended the conversation because I am not a guy. I cried myself to sleep while everyone was in the next room laughing and having a good time. Now my head hurts and this is all I can think about. If you volunteer for crisis line... don't be an asshole. Don't be selfish.