Hi everybody, I will bother you with my story for a while. I have recently made 3 suicide attemps, including 2 with medicines. I don't think I am promoting any means by saying that these don't work, and that one shouldn't use medicines. It's not dangerous, just plain stupid. And your liver is gonna hurt like hell. After these unfortunate attempts, I decided to wait a while, tell people in my family about this, then do it again. I thought I would give them an occasion to understand why I am doing it. I thought this way they would feel better when I finally do it, not as guilty and everything. It quite didn't turn out this way. They are all desperate to help me, they don't understand, they harass me to find some other solution than suicide, and to be honest it is becoming quite bothering. They simply will not let go. It is already difficult enough for me to prepare for death and the subsequent "after" part, I can't deal with this right now. So if you ever get the usual "If you think about suicide, please tell your family about it", don't even bother listening to the advice. It does not make things better, in fact it makes them worse. I tried initiating contact with my mom about this again, because last time she threatened me to do it too if I went ahead -the difference being that she has 2 other kids, so she pretty much accepted responsibilities, while I never asked for all this sh*t. And this time, she just won't accept to talk. So now I just have to go ahead without trying to tell them or comfort them. That makes it harder. So if you are contemplating suicide and are serious about this, don't talk to your family unlike what preachy people try to have you do. There is no point to it.