My crisis is plural. I have been suicidal for 20 years. I don't know why. I don't know why it won't go away. I have also become a targeted individual, a victim of gang stalking. Because it has not been accepted as a crime, everything that happens to me just serves to make me look crazy. When I am in public, people repeat things that I have said in a private phone conversation, they follow me, they take the same classes that I do and bump into me, the gossip about me, spread rumors and say hurtful things. Even my own parents, who I am forced to live with because of my crippiling depression are a part of it. They read my e-mails and watch what I do on the computer and then they allude to it. They harrass me and humiliate me, but without them I am homeless. If I was homeless the gang stalking would only get worse. There are so many of them that I can't describe any one individual. I have not done anything to deserve this, but that is the first thing people assume, they want me to seek help from a counselor, which only makes me seem crazier and more paranoid. I know that this has happend to other people before and that is the only thing that keeps me going. These people want me to commit suicide. They have even followed me here, which seems more evil than I can understand. I don't know what to do and I am very scared.