So recently I have been thinking, what is left? Then I think, oh right to eat a gun. Why do I say this? Well simple because I suck at life. The one thing I need to keep me going, a relationship. Is something I am unable to mantain. I must suck too much at life to give off the correct signs or ideas or whatever. I say this because everything I do is a mistake. I do not know how to express interest. I do not know how to entertain someone. I do not know anything but how to exist in the general area. And in the end I will hurt the person because I am so fucking oblivious to everything. So I ask you people what is left? I am too far gone to learn any new skills. All I know is that I am going to budget in savings to buy that gun I want to eat so very badly. And then see how long I can resist the temptation to just eat it.... since I am just starting saving, and I want something nice and cool looking. I would give me 3 maybe 4 months tops. Until then I will keep living. Hoping that someone can help me find an answer. Because I no longer have hope.