I have my next therapy session in about 1 1/2 hours. I decided to give 1 more shot before following through on my plan later today. But, I don't know if I can tell her the whole truth. I want someone to know, to maybe intervene...I can't deal w/ my life anymore & don't really want to. But, as I type this, my cat is by my side, licking my hand. He's such a mama's boy & I fear he'd not be happy w/ anyone else. Though I've made provision for him, can I really do this to the only one who seems to love me just as I am? But, if I'm open w/ my therapist, I have to live w/ the emptiness, unending pain, & hopelessness. When I woke this morning, I felt so sick...I knew this is a crossroads. Will I choose to live or die? I'm not really even sure yet what my answer will be.