My avatar explains how lonely and stuck in my own head I am. During my 20 year battle with Agoraphobia, depression, ocd and panic disorder I've spent a lot of time alone and in my own head. During the darkest period of my life (so far) I started watching some Big bang theory. The girl that plays Penny (Kaley) really just hit me hard. Kaley/Penny was a shining light in an otherwise dark abyss. Even after getting better she is still on my mind and heart.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not obsessed or think I'm going to be with her lol. However, I do feel like crying knowing that I will never get to tell her how she brought me happiness all by playing a character. I don't follow celebrity or entertainment (I don't pay any attention to Kaley's life as it's none of my business) so for me to feel this way is quite amazing.
As a thiest I pray for Kaley's salvation, healing and safety, I just don't know if it will do any good.
That's how low, pathetic and depressing my life is.