Please help me understand why my depression and struggle with identifying with everything in life that I have to continue to live in it because I am told it would hurt so many people to lose me? If they truly loved me and cared for me that much, wouldn't they welcome the reality of letting me go and be in peace for once in my life. I am not a coward nor am I selfish! Suicide thoughts and the actions one takes because of their pain are like blinders on a horse. you hurt so made that you are incapable of seeing the hurt your causing. I have endured enough pain, enough abuse, enough toxic relationships to last 10 lifetimes. I cannot trust a single person in this world to know my true identity and let them know how much I want to leave this cruel world. All of these places that say they want to help you will have you locked up in handcuffs and transported to a facility where they will drug you until you can't feel anything anymore. How is that help? Where are the people that will listen to you give you a hug until you about hope and about how to look through a different window. Someone who has empathy and not an agenda. There must be a way to talk to somebody without fear of being locked up because I am hurting so bad inside. Truly selfish and cowardly people in this world are the ones that ask a person who is truly hurting to live so they don't have to go through the loss when they're gone.