OK, my mom's here right now in the house. We're on good terms (we usually are). And I do think I want help. I really, really do want to stop cutting. But I said I'd wait till after my dad got his vacation so he could enjoy it. But something's pulling at me. It's like I really really want and need the help but I just can't get to it. Does anyone know some calming techniques or something? Something that'll help me be more patient. Because I really really want my parents to enjoy their vacation.