I'm 19 and I've been self harming since I was 12. When I was 14, I told my best friend and I also told her that I tried to kill myself. My friend told my mother that I self harm without telling me, but not that I had attempted suicide. My mum didn't tell me she knew until last August (2009) and when she told me she know, she was very unemotional, cold and didn't question my reasons, ask if I was still doing it or ask if I wanted help. I let her believe I'd stopped. Now I've gotten to the point I need help as I'm getting to a stage of desperation where I am constantly depressed and thinking about taking my own life. Given how unaffected she was about it before, should I tell her I plan on getting help or should I just go ahead and seek it myself? Thank you.