Okay for starters, should I? I mean I don't want my mum to have to be dragged into worry again because of me. She's got enough problems without me adding to it and me being 16 would mean that she would most likely find out about anything deemed 'serious'. I've had more 'abnormal thoughts' as my mental health group calls them. They kind of went away but they have come back in abundence and apparently brought friends with them. My fear of technology has gotten worse but isn't quite unbearable. I am now terrified of spirits, demons and such even though I don't believe in them or at least i didn't. I have taken measures to protect myself from them because I am convinced that the things I feel/hear/see that aren't really there (proberbly not really there) are in-fact spirits :unsure:. I don't know. I can't convince myself that it's fake and in my head anymore and I keep freaking out and becoming disorientated everytime something happens (which is alot). I am also feeling very detached emotionally which was something I had started to get over. I keep feeling very unappreciated and my self-worth has hit the floor again and possibly sunk through to some other dimention. I am stating to think that I'm just not worth it again and I'll never amount to anything so why do i bother and when im not apathetic I want to cry but I cant for some reason. I have started SHing more frequently and my wrist now looks awful and so does my leg. (therapist does not know about SH should I tell her that too? but again I don't want to worry everyone and bother people when there is no need everyone's got problems at the moment and I'd hate to dump this on them when I'm not worth the bother) I'm really confused because I had started feeling better. This is sucky. I apologise for spelling/gramatical errors. I don't really care today. This was incredibly long and boring. Sorry you read it. I would love some advice if there is any going.