Hi. Welcome to the forums
@ahlekc, we're glad to have you here.
I'm sorry you're having side effects from your medication and that you're feeling so bad at the moment. It's unfortunate that you couldn't get a definite answer from your doctor. I think it is worth you chasing it up, or consider consulting a doctor, to get another opinion.
In the meantime, you can continue to share here, where you can always find any advice or empathy you want. It's worth finding something you want to keep living for, such as your grandchildren, and holding onto that.
I hope you can feel better soon. Stay safe. Sending hugs
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