Hi anyone and everyone I found this site last night. Read through it today in between bouts of manic despair. I don't know if being here will do me any good or not yet but I've just plucked up the courage to say hi in chat and someone was lovely to me. It wasn't much but it meant a lot. I've noticed how much love and compassion there is out there a million times, so why can't I convince my messed up brain? Why is it such a constant battle?