I have been thru hell this week! My good friend beat me to the punch and comitted suicide last Wed. We took one of my cats to be put down Fri Her death has reserfaced so much! I haven't truly eaten since Sat night. I will have a cracker here and there. I hardly drink anything other than alcohol. I average only 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I dream in color and the nightmares are so real!! I am so numb that I am terrified! I KNOW what will happen next. Been there got a damn T-shirt! I am married to someone who abuses me. No, I don't call the police because its complicated. I know I need help, but I have trust issues. I don't open up and keep a great big wall around my heart. I give up!! I give up!!! Nothing is goin right!!