I've been depressed since October 2014, after a couple weeks of extreme stress again I think I'm having a breakdown. I am hearing things. I am terrified and I have no one at home to help or reassure my. When I told my dad he just brushed it off and trivialised it and then wouldn't stay at home with me because it was more important to attend an appointment. I don't want to end up in hospital I would rather die, I just don't know what I can do to finish myself off today. I had been wanting to take my life for a long but have not made plans for hope and expectation that things could be getting better. This set back is huge and I now feel awful for not making appropriate plans sooner. I don't know where I should go from here! I am desperate but don't want to try and take my life in haste and then mess it up.