Hi everyone. I don't really have anyone else to talk to, so I made an account here. I have no friends, and I feel so desperate. Every friend I've had since the age of 12 has eventually rejected me. I have had two close friendships disintegrate in the last few weeks. One of them rejected me in the most painful way possible, he criticised almost every aspect of my personality, said I was going to die alone, I was wasting my life, told me I had never even bothered to get to know him (not true at all, I cared deeply about him), invalidated every feeling I expressed. Said that everyone thought the same about me (that I was annoying etc) but didn't want to create an awkward situation by saying anything to me. I feel so lost as I don't know how not to be annoying, have more common sense, be less quiet, I don't know how to basically change my personality just so people will like me more. I don't really think I should have to, but I have come to the conclusion that my personality, despite all my good points (kind, sensitive, intelligent etc) is essentially 'wrong' to most people. I am currently at university and most people on my course basically ignore me, even if I have tried to get to know them. I go in most days and watch everyone in their groups and feel so alone and terrible. It is has been like this since I was a teenager, and the hope of it ever changing is dwindling now. Like my friend said (he somehow tuned into my deepest fairs and insecurities, entrenching their possible truth in my mind) I am wasting my life and I will die alone if I carry on like this. I live with other housemates but I barely see them, everyone has their own lives, their own friends. This is how it is with the few friends or aquaintances that I do have, everyone has their solid group of friends to go back to, and I have no one. I haven't gone for a night out in months, no one ever invites me. The friend I mentioned earlier treated me horribly because he didn't need me anymore, he got back in contact with his old friends and is now out having fun with them every weekend, while I'm alone. (The injustice of that is killing me, I have to admit). I have no partner or love interest, I want someone to hold me so badly, to care for me. I am doing CBT for anxiety, but that is coming to an end soon, and my therapist doesn't really want me to talk about life stressors anymore, as we don't have much time left and she wants to get the CBT done. Everyone has been shunting me around for months, telling me to go someone else about my problems, they can't deal with it, there's no time, sorry I have loads of stuff on, you're being stupid/irrational etc. The fact is that I can't deal with the constant rejection I've had for years, but I keep being told that it's all in my head, I'm too sensitive or negative. I say, 'what if it's true?' and the person I'm talking to just looks at me with frustration. I don't know, I've just come into crisis now, but I don't have any support at all, I feel like I've used up all my options, I'm sad and heartbroken over so many things, I'm so isolated and I don't know how to relate to anyone anymore. I need help but I don't know where to turn, as I feel my problems are to with who I am fundamentally as a person. At the same time I'm very mixed up an confused and have no idea what's true, what's not true anymore. Sorry for such a long post, but as I've mentioned I don't really have anyone to talk to and all this has been building for months inside of me. Thanks for reading.