Just wanted to thank you all for your words (kind and not so) during December. Those that dont know my pathetic story can look back through posts I guess. Through even more lying and deceiving I managed to give my family one last fabulous Christmas together. We pretended all was good, we all have wonderful pictures in our minds , I hope the kids can keep them for ever. Found a partner to maybe make this cowardly way out easier (NOT from here) and will be ending it on thursday or friday. Another internet pact for the papers to write about, hope to make an "impact" on some who have pushed me to this though they obviously won't care about anything but their pockets. I hope you all find peace.