So yesterday i posted in the thread about when was the last time i cut, and it was 13 days, well now it's something like one hour since i last done it. We had just had dinner, so i go to wash my plate, as i'm washing it, my brother comes in the kitchen wanting more chips, but i had ate the last, he looks at me as if to say "you fat **** head, did you eat the last of the chips?" so i just smile and try and shrug it off. He asks me who ate the chips and i told him i did, and he gives me the look again so i ask him i stop giving me that look, and it breaks out into a argument. At this point i was still holding my plate i was washing, and i wanted to hit him with it ... I was so tempted to, i didn't thank god because i wouldn't of forgave my self, i smashed it instead. I was shaking with rage so i went to my room and cut, but deeper than i normally done it, it felt good to watch the and feel the blood running down my arm, i missed it. It's like an hour since i done it, and i want to do more, but i'm not going to tonight. That is what my brother is like, always putting me down, talking to me like i'm a child he is a ******* ****, hypocrite. On the bright side he is moving out in a few month. Hopefuly now i can start again with my record for time without self harm, my best was 2 years. Hopefully this time i can beat it.