to my point
im a 15 (almost 16) year old girl and im going to have to do everything for my mom soon.
ive tried killing myself seven times and i told her, but she thinks thats really selfish of me
i guess shes sort of right anyway, my sister needs me
but i dont plan on posting again, i just want someone to know i exist
my dad has been putting up with her s/// for a really long time now.
she says she hates him to his face and that he has a "serial killer smile"- whatever that means
she says and does this right in front of me and my siblings. i want to tell someone but i think id just get
taken away from my family. thats what my dad says. i dont know any better.
ive been homeschooled my whole life so im just about as sheltered as it gets. i dont even know
my own address or my own blood type or little, simple things about myself that i probably should.
is it weird that my moms abusive, and not my dad? i dunno, idle thoughts here.
my dads never hurt me or my siblings, or heck, anyone i know. sorry for using heck, its sort of silly
but im trying to avoid foul language aside from the censored one up above. it just feels more clean that way.
she knows she can hurt him and get away with it because hed never hit her back.
she doesnt want to be the "bad guy" but shes already done enough to tearr apart this entire family.
my half-brothers (my dads side, hes been married twice) were pushed away from my dad because
my mom didnt like them. my dads parents have been pushed away, my moms own sister was pushed away,
and my brothers starting to get it too. he turned 18 last year and i almost had to call the police on my mom
last time she argued with my dad. she says either "he'll kill me or ill kill myself" but i dont really believe her.
she started saying shed kill herself after learning i was suicidal, like it never occurred to her before.
i know her. she wouldnt do it. she thinks my dad would actually kill her but he isnt brave enough.
my dad isnt brave enough to hurt anyone. maybe not brave enough, but hes smart enough not to
do anything stupid.
ive got some plants to take care of now, and i guess i should work on that.
theyre all succulents, but theyre not much of an excuse to keep me alive anymore.
my dads packing his stuff as i write this, so i know hes serious this time. hes actually going to leavr.
hes going to leave me with my mom and i dont want to be left alone with her. thats th worst thing he could do. i dont trust my mom, i have no reason to after shes willing to seperate family and slap my dad because "he hurt her"- emotionally. my dads a bit cynical and sarcastic but hes never demeaning to my mom. she just thinks he is. its really not thhat true. i only have my sister and my brother left because we might have to get rid of our dogs. theyre 9 years old adn we got thm asp uppies. i dont want to lose them.
thank you for reading, thouhg.sorry abotmy grammr, im vry upsset.
im a 15 (almost 16) year old girl and im going to have to do everything for my mom soon.
ive tried killing myself seven times and i told her, but she thinks thats really selfish of me
i guess shes sort of right anyway, my sister needs me
but i dont plan on posting again, i just want someone to know i exist
my dad has been putting up with her s/// for a really long time now.
she says she hates him to his face and that he has a "serial killer smile"- whatever that means
she says and does this right in front of me and my siblings. i want to tell someone but i think id just get
taken away from my family. thats what my dad says. i dont know any better.
ive been homeschooled my whole life so im just about as sheltered as it gets. i dont even know
my own address or my own blood type or little, simple things about myself that i probably should.
is it weird that my moms abusive, and not my dad? i dunno, idle thoughts here.
my dads never hurt me or my siblings, or heck, anyone i know. sorry for using heck, its sort of silly
but im trying to avoid foul language aside from the censored one up above. it just feels more clean that way.
she knows she can hurt him and get away with it because hed never hit her back.
she doesnt want to be the "bad guy" but shes already done enough to tearr apart this entire family.
my half-brothers (my dads side, hes been married twice) were pushed away from my dad because
my mom didnt like them. my dads parents have been pushed away, my moms own sister was pushed away,
and my brothers starting to get it too. he turned 18 last year and i almost had to call the police on my mom
last time she argued with my dad. she says either "he'll kill me or ill kill myself" but i dont really believe her.
she started saying shed kill herself after learning i was suicidal, like it never occurred to her before.
i know her. she wouldnt do it. she thinks my dad would actually kill her but he isnt brave enough.
my dad isnt brave enough to hurt anyone. maybe not brave enough, but hes smart enough not to
do anything stupid.
ive got some plants to take care of now, and i guess i should work on that.
theyre all succulents, but theyre not much of an excuse to keep me alive anymore.
my dads packing his stuff as i write this, so i know hes serious this time. hes actually going to leavr.
hes going to leave me with my mom and i dont want to be left alone with her. thats th worst thing he could do. i dont trust my mom, i have no reason to after shes willing to seperate family and slap my dad because "he hurt her"- emotionally. my dads a bit cynical and sarcastic but hes never demeaning to my mom. she just thinks he is. its really not thhat true. i only have my sister and my brother left because we might have to get rid of our dogs. theyre 9 years old adn we got thm asp uppies. i dont want to lose them.
thank you for reading, thouhg.sorry abotmy grammr, im vry upsset.