*not pointed at anyone from this site* I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. You're the reason I am like this. You're the reason I act like this. You're the reason I can't be normal. You're the reason I can't be happy. You're the reason I am me. Your fucking dick should have been chopped off. Along with his and all the others'! You are the ones who turned me into the person I am now. You are the ones who shut me into prison the very momnt you fucking did your thing, not considering how I'd feel about it. You fucking KNEW I didnt want to, all of you. It was fucking OBVIOUS! It was fucking OBVIOUS! how the fuck am I supposed to ever be able to do anything like that again? Thank you SO FUCKING MUCH! I hate you! All of you! thanks to you, I'm now only doing anything when I'm off my face on either drugs or booze or both. AND YOU mother fucker! You fucking KNOW I've had 'experiences' in the past. you fucking KNOW I was having a hard time when M---- was trying to hit on me. You fucking KNOW I have a hard time with sex. Yet you keep trying. And I keep giving in. You only try when I'm not sober. You only try when you're not sober. and I keep giving in. I keep giving in. It's all voluntarily. Until I regret afterwards. You don't even think of safety. all you fucking think of is my body. "oh you make me so horny" FUCK OFF, WILL YOU! But you're so fucking nice. You're so nice. You're really a nice guy and if I say stop you'd stop, but I dont say stop and you know that, because you know what I'm like when I'm off my face. but you only try it when you're off your face too. wtf? I know the last time as been like over a month ago but still.. WHat about your fucking girlfriend? gah. why now? I hate you. and you. and you. and all of you.