Ok so from the first day i joined i have been attempting suicide very very often, most recently in august of 2010. and every time ive tried ive allways come here first. ALLWAYS. and every time i have always been offerd a great deal of help and everyone has always been there for me here. I honestly feel like this site is more my family than my actual family sometimes(horrible i know) but i have never been let down or misstreated here. even in my darkest moments. its very near 14mo that i have been a member, and until recently i have never realized how much help you have all given me and that it may be litterally just because of this site that i am still here. I now am happily engaged and finally working a steady job, hell i even managed to pick up two jobs. I still battle severe depression everyday and i still continue to have many problems and issues and still have my suicidal thoughts, but there is one difference now, i have made a vow (or promise) that i will not die by my own hand i will not take my own life. One of my ways of getting thru my darkest times now is coming here and talking to ppl, and no matter what i come here feeling like i always leave feeling better and thinking more clearly. i guess what im trying to say is THANK YOU!!!! to everyone that has helped me in the past i look back at my posts and realize how much help i dissmissed from soo many ppl who were just trying to stop one more person from making a huge mistake. so once again THANK YOU!!!! and if anyone ever wants to talk to me about anything all they have to do is pm me.