there are a lot of ppl that i need to thank for me seeing my birthday this year. i didn't see myself here to see it. frist off i want to thank everyone in general- jsut for being here. if it wasn't for this site and the ppl here i wouldn't be here now. i know i have made posts that have been edited severely, and i need to apologize to certain ppl for those posts. ruth-i am talking about you. i made some comments that should have never been made. i apologize and hope we can become friends even after the things that i said to you and in posts. abacus-i need to thank you for editing my posts and not banning me from the site. gentlelady- you have helped me more than anyone else and i owe you so much, you will never know. terry- you helped me thru some times that put me over the edge. ishy- you have helped me by just listening and letting me rant. hazel- for talking to me about ECT and tellng me how it is and helping me decide to do it resistance- you have given me some very good advice and checked on me from time to time. danni- for being here for me when i just need to talk to someone that knows what i am going thru. freakin out- for showing me that i can love and be loved to the admin- thank you for this site being here downward spiral-for being there for me when i need adviceand telling me like it is. if it wasn't for this site, i would have been gone from this planet in april. this site has been my lifesaver. it has been my vent and been able torant and rave and jsut spill my guts. nobody looks down on me for the crap i say and i thank everyone for that. i can't forget insignificant-for being there for me even while you were in the hospital. even up til today you are stil checking on me.