Although i was very nervous to try another forum i am so happy i came here. My fears are lessening as i see how compassionate people are and supporting to each other. Thanks for each of your responses and your understanding please if your upset with me at all let me know as soon as possible so i can change whatever i am doing wrong okay. I really don't want to upset anyone thanks i think private diary is a life line as it gets all the pain and unwanted thoughts out without being insensitive to anyone. Thanks to everyone here it is a great forum.