There is a moment in many films where the protagonist has taken all they can take, lost all they loved, and falls to their knees, then the audio fades out and the protagonist lets out a long and silent scream, they make the scream silent because the actor is not feeling anguish in their very soul and so any noise they make at this point will miss the mark terribly. Today I have had that scream resounding in my head all day from the moment I woke up, a loud and unbroken scream, begging to be let out. No matter how much I have tried to get a handle on the day the best I have managed is to stumble through it barely paying attention and taking occasional moments to hide and break down for just a few seconds at a time. Its been so bad that some of my work-mates have noticed I have been much quieter and more distracted today, slowed down, I even got a text after work asking if I was ok. I know this scream well, and occasionally I can quiet it, but today it hasn't left me for a moment, even now.