That Day The window was on my right As I lay that day. I don’t remember Why I was placed that way. I do remember Why I was there. It was much easier When anger hung in the air. I can’t recall much Apart from the window, The blue sky outside And imagining the grass below. Time stood still that day It remains all a blur But when it comes to mind The physical reactions I can’t ignore. The pain, The carnal hurt that was caused Disguised by pleasure and love As my life literally paused. That day was one of the hardest It still replays in my mind, My tears were unnoticed Obviously ill timed. A doctor’s visit followed She asked to examine me alone. And she truly understood, It was a situation well known. The following accusations Were constant. Consisting of mistrust and betrayal And obviously I was the problem. That day haunts, Scares and frightens me still. Because even now, out of the blue They can still control me.