It never really leaves... because no matter how good things apparently are, there's always something that goes horribly wrong, or someone who feels like they can treat me like crap...
I hate it, I hate this feeling of loneliness, of emptiness, of being just a burden for everyone, something everyone can use and put away when they are done, but that nobody can have any feelings towards to... I know I'm ugly, and useless, but I always try my best to be nice... something that it's worthless, being nice just means everyone feels they have the right to take advantage of you, it's useless...
Some people were born to be happy, to be part of other people's lives... and some are just leftovers nobody wants, I know I'm of the latter, everyone makes that clear to me every single day.
I don't want to keep going like this... I'm only alive because I lack the funds xxxxxxxx and just end it all in a 100% safe way knowing I won't be back worse... a life seeing your dreams, even the smallest ones, stomped on every day... this isn't worth living... nobody wanted me 7 years ago, nobody wants me now, nobody will want me no matter how long I wait...
I hate it, I hate this feeling of loneliness, of emptiness, of being just a burden for everyone, something everyone can use and put away when they are done, but that nobody can have any feelings towards to... I know I'm ugly, and useless, but I always try my best to be nice... something that it's worthless, being nice just means everyone feels they have the right to take advantage of you, it's useless...
Some people were born to be happy, to be part of other people's lives... and some are just leftovers nobody wants, I know I'm of the latter, everyone makes that clear to me every single day.
I don't want to keep going like this... I'm only alive because I lack the funds xxxxxxxx and just end it all in a 100% safe way knowing I won't be back worse... a life seeing your dreams, even the smallest ones, stomped on every day... this isn't worth living... nobody wanted me 7 years ago, nobody wants me now, nobody will want me no matter how long I wait...