I hate my life, I hate myself and i'm too much of a coward to kill myself... It'd be easy to say: "Why don't you just talk to your friends about it?" Well the sad but absolute truth is that I lost all my friends when I went away to college, And they all hate me now because I never seem to talk to them they've all moved on I suppose. I mean, I guess they weren't really friends, but they were the closest I ever got to having any. I'm so lonely. I see everyone around me hanging out in groups and cliches and I feel like a big loser when I walk by myself everywhere and eat alone. I'm not a member of any club because I have no interests that would hold my attention longer than a day, and besides no matter where I go i'm sure i'll just be on the outside looking in. I'm a terrible christian, I have no useable talents that pertain to the real world. I'm ugly as a monkey that fell out of a hundred trees, my nose is so big, everyone always made fun of me and called me "Jew" in high school, I tried to play it off but it stopped being funny and started being hurtful the first day... I don't know what to do, I have no reason to live, i'm basically waiting to die at 18... I could really use some help but i'm too antisocial and akward to seek it out face to face with anyone, so i'd appreciate any help right now, please give me a little faith in this world to keep going, and i'll do my best to repay the favor..