At what point should I go in. I am slipping away. Yesterday I got pissed and started yelling f*ck the world and f*ck me too. Then in my self destructive rage I rand head long into a brick wall. That flamed me down for a while. I have a plan the voices are there with me on our stance of suicide. I can't help but to cut right now. I have surgry on Tuesday. I just hope to die in my sleep tonight.