...it has to be done. I gave my ex an ultimatam, dump her or I'll kill myself. Well he's only gone and dumped her.... For fuck sake, thats just made it worse. He will hate me now, our friendship will never recover from this. What the fuck am I going to do? I'll give you an insite into where I am just now with getting help. Went to Dr and asked to be refered to psychotherapy....they sent me to Beating the Blues computer CBT program. I have never been refered. I went back to the Dr and she said that Falkirk District Association for Mental Health would be my best bet, they are a vollentery association. Gave me some tablets to help me sleep. So I went for an initial appointment, the woman there said Al-Anon would give me the best support. She would fast track me as I'm having suicidal thoughts. Went Al-anon, did not understand any of it. Back to Beating the Blues (which I have been going to now for the past 6 weeks) the guy said to me that if I need to be seen quick I'd need to pay for councilling. What the fuck is going on here, I'm doing my bloody best to get help and I get shafted at every given opertunity. How the hell do I get help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What does it take, me going into the Dr office and tell them I've just taken all my pills, will you help me now? Last time I took all my pills the made me wait to speak to some one, then sent me home. I am really pissed off, and totaly backed into a corner with only 1 option.