thats it, i'm doing it right now.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by tenholehweels, Jul 21, 2011.

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  1. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    iv'e already taken a lot theres no need to stop now.

    this life has become unbearable, no need to fight it.

    iv'e been kidding myself, i can't love anyone...ever again..
     
  2. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    wat happened? did u OD?
     
  3. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    woorking on it

    i just wanted to be with the only freinds i have thats here.

    my lifew has gotten soo bad since my wife left..
     
  4. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    I'm really sorry that ur wife left and that ur life is going down...But isn't there any person where u live, any1 at all that can stay with u tonight? or hang or something?
     
  5. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    no this has gonee onseven almost 8 months shes been gone

    iv'e triesd everything, today was ugly..

    i hope shes finally happy..
     
  6. lostbutnotfound

    lostbutnotfound Well-Known Member

    If you have taken any pills, please go to the hospital. I know you are hurting a lot right now, but your children need their father.
     
  7. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    im really sry...plz dnt kill urself...talk to me...talk to us...i'll do whatever i can to help u...what made today bad?
     
  8. Autumn01

    Autumn01 Well-Known Member

    Please don't end your life.
    I'm tired of life too but maybe your life can get better.
    I believe there's hope for you.
    Can you go to the ER?
     
  9. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    probbaly not enough yet

    she scraemed at me on the phone all day

    wants the divorcve to be as ugly and hateful as posible

    keeps playing with my eomotions..


    called me a no good sorry bastarfd and that i shouldnt see my dauhgter


    even my son left..with her..its too much
     
  10. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    im so tired
     
  11. lostbutnotfound

    lostbutnotfound Well-Known Member

    She sounds like a bitch.. I'm sorry, but it's true. I know how much you must be hurting right now, but PLEASE go to the hospital. Your children need you.. even if it doesn't feel that way all the time.
     
  12. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    yes..ur kids need u...they need a father who will love them...but u'll b ok..just keep getting help
     
  13. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    tenhole don't kill yourself..
    she's not worth it..
    8 months isn't a lot of time in the grieving of a marriage breakdown
    please give yourself more time
    I can hear how difficult and painful it is for you but hold on
    *hug*
     
  14. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    well it must not have been enough,woke up sick and my head hurts.

    i guess i can't even do that right...great
     
  15. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I'm really sorry yesterday was so awful. I'm glad you're still alive though. You don't deserve to be treated the way she's treating you, but you don't deserve to die either. I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but you can hold on and get through this.
     
  16. hatemylife

    hatemylife Member

    Someone I know just overdosed on a prescription medication and died. Sure he mightve done it on purpose but all the people around him are in pain now.

    You think youre going to get away scott free? yeah you will, but youll be passing the pain on to your "loved ones" even if (you think) they dont really love you right now, they will be in pain if you go through with it. I guess sometimes it feels good to think of other people being in pain from your death
     
  17. tenholehweels

    tenholehweels Well-Known Member

    theres only one person i want to hurt when i'm gone.

    and only because i want her to feel the pain she caused
    me,not because i think she'll feel any real pain.

    its because i know that everyone will blame her for my death
    and then she won't be able to hide behind lies and deceit anymore.

    i really don't want to use XXXXX but they are my only option i don't
    have the easy way anymore and thats another thing i want to die
    because,yes they probably mean nothing to anyone else but i spent
    20yrs of my life collecting them from all over the world and she took
    them and has been selling them for whatever she can get then taunting
    me about it.

    i have posted that we talked the other day, i have figured out that was
    just another taunt,get me to feeling better then drop the hammer on me
    keep the yo-yo going.

    i have no friends,no family her and my kids were all i had so now i have
    nothing,i'm on disability due to MS and a brain tumor so i can't work
    i live in a crappy one horse town with no mental care facilities at all
    heck i have to travel 35-40 miles just to see my neuro doctor so i
    almost never see him i even had to cancel my twice yearly MRI and
    other tests because i just couldn't afford to go.

    i'm in constant pain,and my eyesight is going i'm so afraid of trying to
    go through this alone,besides if i had the surgery my neuro doctor wants
    me to have i wanted be able to feed or dress or bathe myself and i'd die
    anyway.
     
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