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thats it, i'm doing it right now.

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tenholehweels

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iv'e already taken a lot theres no need to stop now.

this life has become unbearable, no need to fight it.

iv'e been kidding myself, i can't love anyone...ever again..
 
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I'm really sorry that ur wife left and that ur life is going down...But isn't there any person where u live, any1 at all that can stay with u tonight? or hang or something?
 

tenholehweels

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probbaly not enough yet

she scraemed at me on the phone all day

wants the divorcve to be as ugly and hateful as posible

keeps playing with my eomotions..


called me a no good sorry bastarfd and that i shouldnt see my dauhgter


even my son left..with her..its too much
 
#11
She sounds like a bitch.. I'm sorry, but it's true. I know how much you must be hurting right now, but PLEASE go to the hospital. Your children need you.. even if it doesn't feel that way all the time.
 

IV2010

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tenhole don't kill yourself..
she's not worth it..
8 months isn't a lot of time in the grieving of a marriage breakdown
please give yourself more time
I can hear how difficult and painful it is for you but hold on
*hug*
 

WildCherry

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I'm really sorry yesterday was so awful. I'm glad you're still alive though. You don't deserve to be treated the way she's treating you, but you don't deserve to die either. I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but you can hold on and get through this.
 
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Someone I know just overdosed on a prescription medication and died. Sure he mightve done it on purpose but all the people around him are in pain now.

You think youre going to get away scott free? yeah you will, but youll be passing the pain on to your "loved ones" even if (you think) they dont really love you right now, they will be in pain if you go through with it. I guess sometimes it feels good to think of other people being in pain from your death
 

tenholehweels

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#17
theres only one person i want to hurt when i'm gone.

and only because i want her to feel the pain she caused
me,not because i think she'll feel any real pain.

its because i know that everyone will blame her for my death
and then she won't be able to hide behind lies and deceit anymore.

i really don't want to use XXXXX but they are my only option i don't
have the easy way anymore and thats another thing i want to die
because,yes they probably mean nothing to anyone else but i spent
20yrs of my life collecting them from all over the world and she took
them and has been selling them for whatever she can get then taunting
me about it.

i have posted that we talked the other day, i have figured out that was
just another taunt,get me to feeling better then drop the hammer on me
keep the yo-yo going.

i have no friends,no family her and my kids were all i had so now i have
nothing,i'm on disability due to MS and a brain tumor so i can't work
i live in a crappy one horse town with no mental care facilities at all
heck i have to travel 35-40 miles just to see my neuro doctor so i
almost never see him i even had to cancel my twice yearly MRI and
other tests because i just couldn't afford to go.

i'm in constant pain,and my eyesight is going i'm so afraid of trying to
go through this alone,besides if i had the surgery my neuro doctor wants
me to have i wanted be able to feed or dress or bathe myself and i'd die
anyway.
 
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