I've decided. I'm going to call the GP and book an appointment. I'm going to tell him/her about my depression. I don't like drugs but if that's what it takes, so be it. I can't go on like this. Even if a drug gives me motivation, and nothing else, I'll take it. This sounds pathetic, but this is a big thing for me. I hate doctors and hospitals. I really hate this time of year, when everyone's happy and excited to be with their friends family. I have no-one. If I tell him/her that I'm suicidal, will they really keep that confidential?