That's it! I'm not taking this anymore! FUCK YOU. A year ago you pulled shit like this, we forgave you, as you felt sorry and was drunk at the time and didn't know front from back anymore. I stayed friends with you because I care about you. Who cares that eversince I didn't feel comfortable around you anymore? So yeah I invited you over yesterday. Didn't plan on having you stay overnight. There was a reason why I let you sleep on the couch while I went to my own bed, you know. WHY can't I just get a bit more assertive? Why can't I say "no!" when you come into my bed in the morning. and for fuck sake.. I finally do gather the strength to say "no" when you start cuddling me and you simply go "I'm gonna cuddle you anyway" FOR FUCK SAKE! You KNOW about my past. You fucking KNOW! Why is it SO FUCKING HARD for a guy to understand that whhen a lady says "NO", she really does mean "NO!" for fuck sake man. I can't be friends with someone who doesn't respect my needs and boundaries. I know you're cuddly and I used to be too. But you fucked that up a year ago. And now you've fucked our friendship up. FUCK YOU. I'm getting all these flashbacks now. I can't deal with these flashbacks. You're supposed to be my FRIEND. Well fuck that, friends don't do this. And I know your issues are part of why you are the way you are. Which is why I let it all happen all this time. I'm done with it. I'm sorry. I don't want to hurt you, but at some point I gotta choose for myself. I don't want to be hurt either. I don't want to feel uncomfortable and scared every time you come over. I don't want to hug you while thinking "when's he leaving" I don't want to feel this way.