that's what's become of my life i guess.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by I need help, Dec 10, 2009.

  1. I need help

    I need help Well-Known Member

    I don't really know what I'm gonna write on here..but I'll just give it a go.
    I don't cut.
    I scratch.
    I just did.
    I wish i was able to make myself bleed too.
    it's not enough.
    But i'm afraid of getting an infection or whatever by scratching myself with something like a knife...so I just use my nails. too bad I dont have anything sanitary.
    fuck.
    Nothing's right.everything is SO wrong.
    All I want is to be loved.
    but no one ever wants to do it.to love me.
    I'm so fuckin weak.
    I'm such a fucking failiure.
    Everyone uses the word "love" so easily.Don't say it if you dont fucking mean it.
    I just hate it.
    well...I guess we don't always get what we want.. =/
     
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  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I don't use that word at all as i don't think there is really such a thing. I think people care and try to put up with each other but the L word no just won't go there. I hope you have people who care about you some friends who will stand by you that is all i need really is understanding and care.
     
  3. HiddenTears

    HiddenTears Well-Known Member

    People are so cruel. I know what you are going through and I wish I could change it. You don't deserve this, you are such a good friend and a caring person. I guess what I am trying to say is that I hear you, and you are not alone.