I miss you grandpa. You left us exactly 3 years ago today. I know we didn't get along off and on, I thought you hated me, but you revealed about a year before your death that you just cared, you wanted me to make it, you didn't like to see me hurt by the abusive ex's and people who used me. I was never anything you wanted me to be, you cared about learning and teaching classes in school and doing crossword puzzles and reading Louie Lamour books, you were proper and classy. I on the other hand dropped out of school, got addicted to drugs, got in abusive relationships, self-harm,ed and attempted suicide. I was nothing you wanted me to be. I fear I will never be what you wanted. But, more than anything I wish you wouldn't have left me after I got close to you again. I was looking at a picture today one of the pictures of me and you at the creek with my tomboy clothes and fishes, I always threw them back though. I didn't ever wanna hurt the fishes or anyone else. I wish I knew you can hear what I am writting and thinking. I love you grandpa. I miss you. :cry: