I've been bullied. There. Now you can bloody well begin to understand why I'm feckin' miserable and find it extremely feckin' hard to have a positive attitude. But that's not the only reason. Oh no. I started college and I believe I made some real friends. The bastards abandoned me. My older brother was much like a dictator to me when I was growing up. It was all because of his Christian religion. I couldn't watch certain shows and I sure as hell couldn't dress up for bleedin' Halloween! I never went over to a friend's house for a sleepover. Heck, I never even had real friends. But what gets me is this certain friend that I've talked about before. SHE KNEW ALL OF THIS, yet she STILL abandoned me!* I don't get this at all! Why can't I just be happy for once? Why the misery? I'm back in school, but this time for a program that's supposed to help those with mental health issues on their career paths. I hear how my classmates are supposed to be supportive and that we all come from different struggles, but one thing that still hasn't changed is my alienation. I'M STILL IGNORED! When will I ever get the strength to just kill all the pain and my life once and for all? * I've already been told why she did, but I still think it was unfair considering what she knew.