I have been depressed and suicidal for years now, and I think I may have found the answer. The answer is just to live life without hope. For me it is to finally come to terms that there is no hope for me. If you can lean to live without hope than you want have those expectations, you want have that "desire" to be something better. You want have that desire to have someone in your life. You will come to terms that you are alone, you have nothing, and never will.