about a year ago i drank a bottle of vodka and 100 valiums! for some reason i will never know i went 4 a walk rather than just lay my head on the pillow and die! the biggest mistake of my life! every time i think im turning a corner i wake up and realize i soon will be homeless, jobless, friendless, with no family. i cant go though another week of work! i dont know why im even posting this nothing is ever going 2 get better, i need 2 justt be a man, stop whining and end this pathetic life!