The bottom of the pit looms near

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by anarulesmenow, Aug 25, 2010.

  1. anarulesmenow

    anarulesmenow Well-Known Member

    I feel like I'm slowly falling into the pit of despair and self-destruction. I managed to get a hold of everything for a while and pull myself back up but now it's all coming down again. I just feel lost, I'm not really sure what to do with myself if that makes sense. Everyone else is passing around me and to them I'm this happy person who knows exactly what their doing but I'm not.
    Sorry I sound like a proper 'emo' I just need an outlet for how I feel. I don't want to hit the bottom of the pit.
     
  2. anarulesmenow

    anarulesmenow Well-Known Member

    I keep listening to a song called Use once and destroy by Hole. I feel really drawn to it and it kinda describes how I feel.
    Some of the lyrics go

    'I went down to rescue you
    I went all the way down
    Fill your hungry wretched life
    Here they come it's closing time


    I went down for the remains
    Sort through all your blurs and stains
    Take your rapture blister burns
    Stand in line it's not your turn


    I went down to rescue you
    I went all the way down
    I went down for the remains
    Sort through all your blurs and stains'

    I feel like I'm at the bottom of that pit and I want someone to come and rescue me, but I'm worried that all they'll find is the remains of who I used to be. I want to be fixable but I'm not sure if I am