I feel like I'm slowly falling into the pit of despair and self-destruction. I managed to get a hold of everything for a while and pull myself back up but now it's all coming down again. I just feel lost, I'm not really sure what to do with myself if that makes sense. Everyone else is passing around me and to them I'm this happy person who knows exactly what their doing but I'm not. Sorry I sound like a proper 'emo' I just need an outlet for how I feel. I don't want to hit the bottom of the pit.